Talk:Episode 86 - Nothing but the Number of Tears/@comment-31466279-20171220103652/@comment-32839716-20171220171714


 * takes a deep breath* Ok then, I think you've missed the entire point here. Let's see if I can still get my point across while suffering from flu-brain.

Rola is not the kind of person who overtly shows affection or likes anyone to see her cry. Heck she doesn't even want others seeing the effort she puts into what she focuses on (like when she planned the tv job with Yume and Kirara interrupted). She's a very private and personal person who is also overly guarded. She most likely cried over her S4 loss when no one was looking. In fact many doujin fan artists have that very idea as the focal point of their story, just how upset she really was. Keep in mind she also cares a great deal about Yume, why would she let Yume see her upset over her win? That would be unfair to Yume and make her feel bad. Rola very much fits your typical Scorpio, emotions kept hidden behind very strong walls.

What was she fighting for? There's an even more well known story about a marathon race. The media wanted to ask the winner how he felt about the race but he told them to wait for the person who finished last. Why? Because when everyones left and no one cares if you cross that finish line or not, that person is still running to finish the race. That person has character. That person no matter what happens, no matter how much they get beaten down they keep going. It's not about victory or winning that was not what she was even going for, it's about staying the course and NEVER giving up. Rola knew she would lose, but she still fought and gave it her all. Why the heck wouldn't that hurt? it hurts every time you try and lose but at that point do you just give up? Do you just run away? She almost did, but Scorpio is also the zodiac sign that looks for signs. That's why you see her running into situations that seemingly put her in the direction she should be going in (like her by chance meeting Ayano) It's the same idea as Sumire using tarot cards for signs. Rola doesn't really need to search for answers, they seemingly just come to her.

Also, you should check out the 5 love languages. It's based on the psychological idea that different types of "languages" makes someone feel loved or unloved (acts of service, physical touch, gifts, quality time, words of affirmation). Rola's is "Words of affirmation" This means when someone compliments her or gives her encouraging words she feels loved and makes her unbelieveably happy, but when she's insulted or critizised it cuts to the core. Sounds like a weakness? Well any of these 5 languages could be adversely used against you, and we all have at least one of them.

Now back to those emotional walls of hers. It's taken how many episodes for her to actually open up to yume? 86? How many times did Yume try to hug her and she just dodged? It's normal for her to cry to herself, that's just how she is. However, it's monumental that she was able to tell Yume how she somewhat felt. It's even more meaningful that she ran into her friends arms and cried on her shoulder! That means she had the strength to get past her own emotional walls and reach out. That's not a sign of weakness, that's a sign of her growth!

Rola went from an arrogant, egotistical person to someone who genuinely cares about others and desires to constantly better herself. And to note, superiority complexes like she demonstrated do not actually exist, they are always inferiority complexes hidden by arrogance.

But what would I know? I'm just a scorpio who studies psychology that relates heavily to Rola and has lived through basically what she's going through, just in different playing fields. Having to constantly pick myself up and keep going when no one believed I could do it, because I didn't have someone like Yume around until now. Oh and I was raised to believe crying was a sign of weakness. But it's not, it takes great strength to actually open up to someone else, especially when all you have even known are the walls that keep your emotions hidden. This episode spoke miles to me. Personally I've always been a fighter, but somewhere along the line I started giving up without even trying. I just ran away. I understand her resolve and what she was really searching for. Just think outside of Aikatsu into the real world where being kicked down all the time can leave people. Those that are strong get up and survive. And some of us looking for signs on what we must do. All in all, it's about being a better you than you previously were and fighting no matter what stands in your way. THAT is what beating your weaker self is all about.