Talk:Episode 86 - Nothing but the Number of Tears/@comment-31466279-20171220103652/@comment-32839716-20180104204619

I'm out of school, but I was horribly competitive in school. And I wasn't nice about it, at all. I was horribly competitive over everything (especially singing). Lol in singing class my teacher HATED me because I wouldn't listen to her. Kinda like Rola when she kept brushing off Anna Sensei. She one time called my parents to say I had a ton of talent but my arrogant attitude was something else. But then I dated someone who crushed my spirit every time I was competitive at all. You know the type, the one that not only beats you but makes you feel like utter trash while doing it. Kinda like what Elza does really, her song was very arrogant. But Rola would never date Elza LOL

I was once trying to make the varsity team...and was pretty bummed when I failed and got put on JV. And then more bad things happened on JV and I ended up having to quit (to be fair my teammates were intentionally getting me hurt and I could have been seriously injured).

What happens when you try and try and keep seeing you fail? One of two things.

The one with truly strong character keeps going, depending how much abuse they took.

The other may develop learned helplessness. It's a psychological condition where you don't even try because you feel there's no point, whatever you do will not affect the outcome. At that point you don't cry, you brush it off and assume that's just how life is.

Rola was trying to decide whether to just give up or at least try. It was BECAUSE people were there for her she made up her mind to just do it. It's really a stark contract to the more positive arrogance she had at the beginning of season 1. That's what happens when you get beaten down.

It really doesn't matter if you've said before scores and placement don't matter, it WILL hurt if you lose when you give it your all. Keep in mind when she said it she WAS the current 1st place, and the person she lost it to was Yume, who she adores.

She has a chance to go worldwide, let's see what she does with it. Let's see if she finally picks herself up and figures out the end game.